Chapter 14 - VANESSA’S FIRST APOLOGY MADE ME ANGRIERHer first letter said:
I am sorry the wedding morning became traumatic for everyone.
No.
The second:
I’m sorry I pushed Rose after she ignored my boundaries.
Worse.
There it was.
Still blaming a four-year-old.
Months later, after court proceedings and treatment, another arrived.
This one was different.
Rose, I wanted the role of being your mother more than I wanted the responsibility of caring for you.
Accurate.
When your needs interrupted the life I imagined with your father, I began treating normal childhood behavior as something you were doing to me.
Yes.
I told you that Daniel preferred quiet girls because I wanted you to stop asking him for comfort.
Hard.
I helped create records describing you as difficult so that, after the wedding, it would be easier to convince your father that you should live somewhere else later.
There.
Then:
I did not have the right to make you smaller so I could have more room in Daniel’s life.
I stopped reading.
That sentence was enough.
Rose did not receive the letter then.
Too young.
May you like
We preserved it.
At sixteen, she could choose.
